Addressing the worries

My biggest worry: Will I get addicted to this? To nature? To an extend that I forget my family?

I am an introvert, was always an introvert. I have trouble socializing.. Not that I hate people; but I have difficulty in talking.. I can sit and listen for hours, but cannot make small talk to people i am not close to. 

Recently I saw a video on introverts, which was precise enough to describe me. 

As in the video, I just get tired with routine involving people, and need time off, alone time. That doesn't mean that I need a solitary life, but I need breaks every now and then to recharge. Break is just a change from existing things into different set of things for few days. 

That's all I need, i dont need a break from my family, I just need a break from monotony.. A solo trip will give me that much needed break.

My second biggest worry: Is it safe? to travel alone?

Travelling alone involves talking to strangers, I mean no body is there with you to get things done, which means you Re the one looking for information, and may be asking for help sometimes, which I am too bad at - asking for help that too to a stranger - unthinkable 😅

But if i think about it, I don't have problem to talking to complete strangers. I have problem talking to people whom I know a bit, but not too close.

I prefer texts or mail to calling over phone or meeting in person. Weird right? 🤓

So I decided to go on trip with other people to gain some confidence before I venture on solo trips.. Seems like a safe option for now. And i searched for some travel group for woman and found one which i think is a good option for me. Its for woman of all ages, and for budget travelers. The more I read about the group and the organizer, i became a fan of the group organizer.

My Passion?

So I sat down, and thought about what I want to do to have a happier life? What is it that drives me? What is my passion?

I like art. I like music. Books. Writing. I like outdoors. Travelling. Loneliness. Going off the grid.. Not care about anything in the world.. No phone, Internet nothing. I like adventure.. Like flying.. Adrenaline rush.. Nature.. Wildness.. Serenity.. Mountains.. Valleys.. Green Forests.. Streams.. Hill stations.. Beautiful places.. Cold weather.. Monsoon.. Rain..

I knew what I want.. I want to travel.. Alone. To beautiful places.. Immerse myself in nature.. Carefree.. Away from responsibilities.. Stress..

My biggest worry: Will I get addicted to this? To nature? To an extend that I forget my family?

My second biggest worry: Is it safe? to travel alone? 

The Epiphany

It was during one of the boring Friday evening in my flat in Bangalore, that I thought about what to do on weekend.. May be we could go for a movie or some park.. Or sit at home as most likely we will end up doing..

That made me realize that something is missing in my life.. But I can't quite catch hold of it.. Or at least I pretended that I am not able to.. 

But today was different somehow, I thought I should bring change in myself and my lifestyle.. Next year I am turning 35. Thirty five!

If I don't do what I want to do now then when will I ever? There is a scene in Bangalore Days movie where RJ Sarah says to a group of kids that "what stands between you and your dream is YOU" Initially it might feel as a superficial motivational quote but, actually it touched me.. Because that is the truth. There is nobody in this world who could stop me from doing what I want to do.. I have a wonderful family which will support me in any such decision.. 

Even with this kind of support if I choose not to pursue my dreams, it will be a lost opportunity that I would end up regretting later in my life.

So I sat down, and thought about what I want to do to have a happier life? What is it that drives me? What is my passion?