My Passion?

So I sat down, and thought about what I want to do to have a happier life? What is it that drives me? What is my passion?

I like art. I like music. Books. Writing. I like outdoors. Travelling. Loneliness. Going off the grid.. Not care about anything in the world.. No phone, Internet nothing. I like adventure.. Like flying.. Adrenaline rush.. Nature.. Wildness.. Serenity.. Mountains.. Valleys.. Green Forests.. Streams.. Hill stations.. Beautiful places.. Cold weather.. Monsoon.. Rain..

I knew what I want.. I want to travel.. Alone. To beautiful places.. Immerse myself in nature.. Carefree.. Away from responsibilities.. Stress..

My biggest worry: Will I get addicted to this? To nature? To an extend that I forget my family?

My second biggest worry: Is it safe? to travel alone? 

The Epiphany

It was during one of the boring Friday evening in my flat in Bangalore, that I thought about what to do on weekend.. May be we could go for a movie or some park.. Or sit at home as most likely we will end up doing..

That made me realize that something is missing in my life.. But I can't quite catch hold of it.. Or at least I pretended that I am not able to.. 

But today was different somehow, I thought I should bring change in myself and my lifestyle.. Next year I am turning 35. Thirty five!

If I don't do what I want to do now then when will I ever? There is a scene in Bangalore Days movie where RJ Sarah says to a group of kids that "what stands between you and your dream is YOU" Initially it might feel as a superficial motivational quote but, actually it touched me.. Because that is the truth. There is nobody in this world who could stop me from doing what I want to do.. I have a wonderful family which will support me in any such decision.. 

Even with this kind of support if I choose not to pursue my dreams, it will be a lost opportunity that I would end up regretting later in my life.

So I sat down, and thought about what I want to do to have a happier life? What is it that drives me? What is my passion?

Imagine a woman

Imagine a woman who believes it is right and good she is a woman.

A woman who honors her experience and tells her stories.

Who refuses to carry the sins of others within her body and life.

Imagine a woman who trusts and respects herself.

A woman who listens to her needs and desires.

Who meets them with tenderness and grace.

Imagine a woman who has acknowledged the past's influence on the present.

A woman who has walked through her past.

Who has healed into the present.

Imagine a woman who authors her own life.

A woman who exerts, initiates, and moves on her own behalf.

Who refuses to surrender except to her truest and wisest voice.

Imagine a woman who names her own gods.

A woman who imagines the divine in her image and likeness.

Who designs a personal spirituality to inform her daily life.

Imagine a woman in love with her own body.

A woman who believes her body is enough, just as it is.

Who celebrates her body's rhythms and cycles as an exquisite resource.

Imagine a woman who honors the body of the Goddess in her changing body.
A woman who celebrates the accumulation of her years and her wisdom.
Who refuses to use her precious life energy disguising the changes in her body and life.

Imagine a woman who values the women in her life.

A woman who sits in circles of women.

Who is reminded of the truth about herself when she forgets.

Imagine yourself as this woman.

--- A poem by Patricia Lynn Reilly